“Every gift has value. Even the darkest of gifts, things that have kept you in fear, a slave, for so long, are simply twisted shadows of something beautiful. Accept these gifts. Claim the light side of them.
Remember that any act taken from fear, from anger, from a desire to control or enslave another (even another part of your self) will lead you into shadow. Remember this. For the claiming of these gifts will bring up memories of much fear, of much anger, of much abuse of self and others… If you are careless, you can repeat those mistakes and harm yourself and those around you.
1. Accept them as they are, these pieces, for now they are part of you. Accept them and allow them to be whatever they are, exactly as they are.
2. Recognize… This Is Important. Recognize that these things, whatever they are, are NOT your parents, your abusers, your rapists, your jailers, … They are now part of YOU. They are you.
3. Move yourself inside each one, one at a time. Move there and claim that place. ‘You are not a seperate thing,’ you declare with all the will, strength, power, self, … you have access to. ‘This is me. However ugly or beautiful, however strong or weak, however sacred or unclean, pure or vile, strong or weak, lost or sure… Someone else may have put this here, but now This Is Me.’
Allow it no will of its own, this thing, no separate mind. Do not stop it’s thoughts, actions, words, ideas… no matter how much you disagree, hate, fear, or whatever… Claim it. ‘This too is me.’
4. Expand. As you claim that piece in you (as you) expand to fill it, and fill it with who you CHOOSE to be. If your life choice is kindess, fill this piece with that. If it’s strength, use that. If it’s will, or hope, or love, or light, or life, … use that. As you stand within this place of confusion, horror, pain, dark memories, … as you claim it as your own, expand your self to fill it and overflow it and integrate it within you. And as you do, fill it completely with what you have chosen to be and to express in this lifetime. Fill it with your light, saying all the while, ‘This too is me.’ And in filling it and claiming it, it becomes part of you.
5. Once it becomes part of you, accept its gifts and let them become yours.
Make a better choice. As much as you can Act Always In Love, from Love, following and expressing Love. Act from a place that begins in joy and childlike wonder. Act from whatever you have chosen to anchor your life in. When you lose that, pause. Go back to an earlier step.
Continue. Remember that anything you have carried for some time has changed you. It has developed habits in you, spawned emotions, buried traumas and practiced fears… Do not be so naive as to expect to do this once and be done. It is possible that, in each and every moment for the rest of your life, these things will pop up again. and again. and again. When they do, repeat the simple steps above. Once you’ve done them a few times, they will become automatic, as easy as breathing… Keep going.
Joy vs. fear. They will come back to you, these oft-times painful gifts, whether in moments when you least expect them, or when you sit down intent on dragging them into the light. Again, and again, and again, the pieces of your past will return to shape your present. When they do, know in your gut that they are presents, see them as gifts. Do not fear these times. Expect them in every instant and accept them when they come. Celebrate them as gifts, giving every moment of your life the chance to be christmas, birthday, name day, hannukah, or whatever day of gifts your inner child recognizes.
All of your greatest gifts in this lifetime are ones that have come to you in moments of intense emotions.
Do not accept only those that came with emotions you prefer. Accept them all, recognize them as parts of yourself, move into them, expand and fill them with who you have chosen to be, embrace their gifts, in joy not fear, and continue, dancing thru your life, discovering in every moment new wonders to celebrate, new toys to play with, new experiences to love and honor, to celebrate and be grateful for.”
The Angel
02:15 04/16/2014
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