“I was four years old and playing with my dolls when it happened. My Grandma was doing laundry and singing to herself when I had the sudden realization, that everything was perfect, exactly as it should be, because I was here. At the same time, I understood that if I had never been born, everything would be just as perfect, but in a whole different way. Not exactly a normal epiphany for a child, or even most adults, but I understood it completely, and felt its truth in my very core. I thought, Oh good, everything is perfect, I can go now.
Having nowhere I should go and using all the options available to a four-year=old, I put a dress on my dog, packed my doll in a play suitcase, and headed for the park. This was a very small town in 1976, and the park was only two blocks away. It really wasn’t that daring of an adventure. Besides, where else would I go?
When I got to the park, I sat on a bench and wondered what now? A blinding white light and several ‘beings’ immediately surrounded me. I assumed this was God, even though it seemed odd that God would appear as multiple and androgynous … but I supposed God could appear any way He chose. That’s the prerogative of being omnipotent.
The communication that followed was a mixture of visions and meaning conveyed without a medium, like just knowing something without hearing or seeing it.
The basic message was this: Would you be willing to help us out? Your life wouldn’t be as ‘fun’ as a normal human life, but it would mean a lot to us?
Sort of take one for the team. I agreed and asked what to do. They replied just keep your heart open. Then I experienced the crucifixion, the weight and pain of that life of service, emotional weight, and spiritual weight. Then I felt the release from the body, and the incredible contrast of freedom and love as my spirit soared. Then it was over. Just like that. I was just sitting in the park.
It was years before I even told my Mom about the experience because I thought everyone got a mission. In my mind, you learned to walk, then you learned to read, then you got your mission from God, then you started Kindergarten. I was four. Made sense to me. I was eight or nine when I started to realize not everyone was aware of having a mission. So I told my Mom about this experience and asked her if it was normal. Apparently not.
Almost forty years later, I still remember it like it was yesterday, but my interpretations have changed a bit. Instead of God, I think it was my guides contacting me. Instead of asking me to take on this mission, I think they were reminding me why I came. It has been the defining moment of my entire life, and my understanding of it expands and evolves all the time. But I do think the directive is exactly as they stated: Just keep your heart open.”
Waking Up Indigo: Personal Stories and Practical Guidance on Spiritual Awakening (A Life’s Journey), Natha Jay, p. 1-3.
Accept every seeming setback as a challenge, never as a defeat. Realize these are obstacles to be overcome and that with My help you will overcome every one of them and arise triumphant. You become stronger spiritually, your faith becomes unshakable as you face each obstacle fearlessly, knowing that all is very, very well. 
Draw from the source of all creation, from Me, the Lord your God, and all wisdom, all power, all knowledge, all understanding, all love is yours. Accept this wondrous truth, realize, it, absorb it, and allow it to become part of you. As you do so your whole being will begin to glow with light and all darkness will melt away into nothingness, for darkness cannot withstand the light.
I learn with all the beings that surround me through all time.
And learning through LOVE, I bless my essence and my way of expressing, although there may be someone who cannot understand me.
